Rationality

I’ve had lucid dreams before and they are always interesting experiences, but a couple of days ago I had one that was especially noteworthy.  I can’t recall much of the detail, but it doesn’t much matter.  I remember peeling what seemed like a hard-boiled egg but which turned out to have some kind of an embryo in it – upon seeing what it was I think the bizarreness shocked me into going lucid (the realization that something one is experiencing cannot possibly be real will sometimes throw one into lucidity).  As is often the case when I go lucid things started to take on a kind of glimmering fuzziness that made it hard to focus.  I imagine this sensation might occur in the real world when one’s pupils have been dilated and everything looks too bright, or if you have bad vision like me, when bright objects or lights take on an a luminous aura when you aren’t wearing glasses or contacts.  The first thing I tried to do in the dream was to bring the world into focus – I was trying to open my eyes wide and, alternatively, to squint in order to see things clearly.  This, of course, was folly.  I had the sudden realization while still dreaming that I was trying to use my eyes to see, but that my eyes were closed and the objects of my perception were all in my head – that I was seeing things without using my eyes!   I then found that by relaxing my dream-eye (is this my mind’s eye?) things would begin to focus.  At this point, as is often the case, the stress of being consciously aware of my dream led me to awaken.

I’m not a huge fan of using the Matrix to explain metaphysical notions, but soon after I woke up I recalled a pertinent scene from the movie.  There is a point where Neo and Morpheus are training in the matrix and Neo is exhausted and sweating profusely.  Seeing his struggle, Morpheus says something like, “you think that’s air your breathing?”  in an effort to get Neo to realize that he wasn’t and shouldn’t be trying to overcome the seeming ‘physical’ obstacles since the things he was experiencing were non-physical.  This was exactly my experience in this particular dream – I couldn’t cope or take control of the dream world until I realized that I wasn’t seeing ‘things’ at all and I wasn’t using my eyes to see them.  It was quite extraordinary.

I’ve gone semi-lucid a number of times before, but on the occasions where I am completely lucid I find it very difficult to stay asleep.  Lucid dreaming, though, is a skill, believe it or not.  Practice can enable one to go lucid more frequently and learn to control one’s dream world.  I’m still a novice, but it sure would be a fun skill to master – opening endless possibilities, like seeing without seeing.